Tiny Miss K

Skinny, please!

  • 14th September
    2011
  • 14

A little more about me and my weight loss plans…

When I was 15/16 years old, I was at my smallest. I didn’t really mean to be either. It just happened and it was fabulous! I began drinking more diet coke and water and eating less-not for any real reason, I just wasn’t hungry. A typical day consisted of diet coke for breakfast (usually because I spent too much time on my hair and make up and didn’t have time to eat before school), a small bag of baked lays and skittles for lunch, and for dinner a small portion of whatever my mom cooked or just some bread and butter. I also really liked toasted pb&j on the low cal bread. I wasn’t even counting cals either. I lost weight over the summer before the school year started and kept in going into the fall. I was really involved with school and dance 3 times a week and I also had my first real boyfriend that year so I was always busy. I want to be that girl again. I miss the old me.

My junior year when I began driving and having my own money, I spent a lot of it at restaurants and on fast food mainly because I could. I developed a fast food addiction that was out of control and I switched studios for dance and was down to only 1 day a week! I gained a significant amount of weight that year, got really depressed, and wore sweatpants all the time. I completely let myself go. Oh and I broke up with my boyfriend because he was clingy and I pretty much shut everyone out from school except for a few close friends. I was tired of high school and tired of the routine.

So now, to fast forward for you, here I am, 19 and moved away in college. And nearly 50 lbs fatter. I have an eating disorder-and not the kind that makes you thin! I’m a compulsive over eater and even though it may not be your typical ed…it very much is. I eat endlessly and gain so much weight. I’m to the point now where I’m feeling guilty for even stepping into the kitchen. I know I don’t need the food but something is telling me different. I eat it anyways and regret it later.

So tomorrow I’m starting something new, something strict, something to get me back to my old self. I’ve had a lot of “first days” and “day ones” but this is for real. I can’t keep doing this to my body.

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